This is my story that will hopefully help you along with your own story
I was originally going to write about my past and how I got to the place I am now, but I decided that looking back at this point is useless. Nothing in my past needs to be brought up. What matters is now. Not yesterday, not tomorrow, but now. Right now, my life is not picture-perfect, but it is better than it has ever been before. Why, you might ask? Because I am happy. Truly, genuinely happy. Not rich, not in a relationship, not owning my own home or even a decent car, but truly happy and content from within. The contentment that stops me from struggling and allows me to envision and plan and move forward.
How am I doing it? Intentions. Simply putting out intentions and allowing the new strength within me, and the powers that be in the ether, to realize those intentions. I can’t even really pinpoint when I discovered the law or power of intentions. All I know is that practicing it along with a new self-caring attitude has really begun to change my life and my way of approaching things.
I do know that the self-caring resulted through wanting to help people. It dawned on me that being able to offer healing to people was a gift that I possessed and wanted to share. I also realized that in sharing this gift, if I was not in a good place mentally, physically or even spiritually, I could do more harm to a person rather than heal them. It was essentially my duty to love myself enough to take care of myself so that I could be a whole person well enough to offer help to others. It was a process of looking deep within myself and deciding what was best for me. Making decisions that made no sense to anyone else, but gave me a release from stress and unhappiness.
On this I cannot advise for you. You have to decide what your happiness and loving yourself looks like. I will say this though, it requires you to be the rawest honest with yourself. It is scary at times, but if you are honestly willing to live out the consequences of your choices, after determining possible outcomes, you will be just fine.
Back to intentions. What are they really? If you really want to do this, change your life for the better, then, read about intentions here: https://chopra.com/articles/5-steps-to-setting-powerful-intentions. This website describes it very well. It’s basically a thought to do something that is followed by an action to accomplish the thought. But more powerful than that because unseen forces intervene on our behalf and help realize the intentions.
A book I recommend reading is The Magic of Believing by Claude Bristol. Here is a link to read in pdf style online: https://www.thedynamicsale.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/06/The-Magic-of-Believing-by-Claude-Bristol-1948-Success-Manual-Strategist-Edition-2010.pdf. This book gave me practical steps to follow to strengthen my conviction about intentions and believing. I always thought that I had to have faith in Something or Someone. Now I realize I just have to have faith. Faith in myself and faith in my believing. Nothing more. I am still developing what I am “into”. I am doing research into many different beliefs and systems and am pulling what I agree with from each one.
My only motivating factors that have kept me on track lately are love and healing. Beyond that, everything else just sort of falls into place. But, that love and healing extends to myself as well and foremost. Because when I am well, I can be 100% for anyone else who may need what I have to offer at any given time. Thank you for reading this.